for once

i had the upper hand! recap: just after 9am killjoy came and told me that we'd have our exit interview at 3pm today. at that point i realized that she fully expected me to work the entire day. and at that point i decided it was time for me to just go. at 9:45am i went to killjoy's office and placed my time sheet and access card on her desk and told her: me: i'm going to go ahead and call it a day killjoy: (speechless, jaw dropped open and she got a bit bug-eyed) well, we need to do this exit interview me: i'm not interested in participating in that. i don't have anything to add to what i put in my resignation letter (which was nothing anyway) killjoy: (still speechless and staring at the time sheet and card) me: yeah, i haven't done much of anything over the past few days and i can't justify just sitting there doing nothing for another whole day. plus, as of 9:15am this morning i fufilled my 2 week obligation so i'm going to go. killjoy: ok, well good luck. (said very quietly, almost mousy-like - which is totally unlike her UNLESS she is caught by suprise) me: sure. (then i left her office, got my coat, said some final goodbyes and left the building) ********************** this whole time (and even throughout my entire time working under her), killjoy has always seemed to be a step ahead. she "knew" i was looking for a job, she "knew" i was doing this or that, she "knew" blah, blah blah... well this time, she did NOT know this was coming. the look on her face of utter shock and her being practically speechless made the event that much sweeter. so there it is. i'm done. so what do people do at 10:40 am on a wednesday? LOL

hell ya!

so my out of office assistant is on and i so love the fact that i can put on there that i've moved on and i'm passing the buck to killjoy! i don't anticpate being here after noon. as of 9:15 AM this morning, i will have fulfilled my 2 week notice (if they want to get picky about it).

squirm-fest

receptionist/supervisor decided to not finish 2 bids yesterday and left them for me to do today. when i got in this morning there was a stack of bids waiting so i promptly took the 2 from yesterday back up to her to do because hey, i had a stack of shit to do and she could've gotten them done yesterday if she wasn't so damn lazy! heehee, the look of dread on her face was classic. thing is, she does this all the time and today i wasn't going to pick up the pieces. accounting gal is having to order lunch for the management meeting and she is up in arms because she's never done it. um, all you do is call the food place, tell them what each person wants, the pickup time and give them the payment info. it's not fucking rocket science! good lord! they will be f*cked if they act like this....... i wish i could be a fly on the wall!

feigning interest

so here i sit, waiting for whatever to do. part of me wants to just call it good and end my tenure today while the other part says i should do the "right thing" and work through wednesday. problem is, why should i do the right thing for a company that hasn't done squat for me in quite some time and had written me off from any upward mobility almost a year ago? yeah, i don't know either. so in the meantime, here i sit, pretending like i give a shit. . . . . . . . oh who am i kidding, i'm not pretending at all!

way 2 go miss thang!

so somehow in the last 24 hours the database that client leads are imported into has become un-accessible. i find it interesting that as of my leaving yesterday, it was working just fine and today guess who started working with said database.....yes, the perfectly un-qualified, inexperienced receptionist/supervisor! sure, maybe there are strange things afoot, but my bets on receptionist/supervisor did something to screw it up because she's the one that tries to open an excel document in word.

bring it!

go ahead jackass sales manager, i dare you to say something snide to me or to get huffy! i double dog fucking dare you to because i'm just looking for a reason to be done with this place early - and you're as good a reason as any! jackass sales manager and i passed each other in the hallway and he gave me that "get the eff outta my way, bitch" look. i would so love to just march up to killjoy's office and say "i'm done with this place and i'm not taking his crap anymore." so bring it, jackass, BRING IT!

what part of

"here's my 2 week notice and i don't give a damn" are you not understanding?! seriously, since killjoy/drama queen started blabbing to everyone under the sun about me leaving suddenly all these "projects" are being presented to me. Um people, here's a newsflash for you - I DON'T GIVE A DAMN! so stop bringing me this shit that you think i'm going to finish up before i leave because, unless i really like you (of which there are maybe 2 people), i'm not going to do it! what are you going to do? tell my boss on me? go ahead, i'll point you to where her office is and you can go cry your effing head off to her! i'm being decent enough to work out my notice, but i'm not altruistic. i'm not doing anything more than i absolutely have to. so p*ss off!

drama queen fun

i should've nicknamed killjoy "drama queen" instead! i discovered from people who've found out about my departure from her that ever since giving my notice, killjoy has been "did ya hear...?" to practically anyone who passes by her office! she's playing the pity-me card to anyone who'll listen. then i noticed the posting for my job in the break room and found mis-spellings. apparently discretion regarding employees and detailed proof-reading are not requirements for someone in her position. always the consumate professional! NOT! of course, watching this all unfold is sofaking hilarious! if they only knew what's coming when i'm not here to deal with the azzhat sales reps, maintain the databases and create the pdfs among other things.

i suppose

i should at least try to be excited about this, but i'm not. far from it. anyway, i have a phone interview next week. i've applied for a similar position to this company earlier this month and had a similar phone interview - nothing came of it and i expect nothing will come of this one. i'll still prepare and feign enthusiasm but after the last job interview debacle, i just don't have much left in me. at least it's over the phone and i don't have to go there only to have it fall through. they can tell me to piss off over the phone and avoid the face to face dismissal. on another note, the marketing director is having her baby now. ms. receptionist/customer service supervisor r decided to go around to everyone telling them that she's having a c-section, etc, etc, etc. now, i truly hope it goes well because it's a mom and baby - regardless of any personal feelings. but, those personal feelings do come into play. since director came on board (she's the founder's daughter didn't ya know!) all sorts of things have changed. she's taken over 1/2 of what i did before (ads, glossies for presentation binders, etc) and brought on the hr consultant - she's managed to just start rocking the boat every which way and of course it won't affect her because again - she's the founder's daughter. she doesn't talk to me, and in fact, i barely get a glimpse if we pass in the hallway, so i really don't care about when she goes into labor, etc. i care that it all goes smoothly, but that's as far as i'm going. now, onto ms. receptionist/customer service supervisor r - why does she feel that she has to go and "share" all the news. like it's hers to share?! she also said that "everybody" was asking. um, i wasn't asking and therefore don't feel that she needs to come over here telling me all this. i don't give a flying fuck! i swear, r has to be in everyone's business and has to tell everyone. the woman can't keep her damn nose out of things. that seems to be par for the course anymore, everyone has to know everyone else's business and god forbid if you don't divulge your deepest secrets because then you're labeled as troubled, anti-social or whatever. can you tell i've been through this and am still going through this. it's been better now that i sit on the other side of the building and don't have to be in the middle of it all, but even still - it creeps up on me. not that long ago, last summer-ish, killjoy (boss-lady b) wanted to know why i was so quiet and seemed distant and she said that "something must be wrong at home" implying that something was wrong between j and i. in my head i imagined that i was shoving her head against the door frame and then slamming the door in her face! i was fucking livid! first, it's not her place to butt in, even if it were the case - which it wasn't. even if it was, i woudn't be talking to her (or anyone here) about it. but the fact that she said it matter of factly - what the fuck?! ok, i'm getting really worked up so i'm going to cut this short. suffice it to say, it's like fucking small-town-urbia here. i wish i had studied harder when taking my C++ programming classes - then I could a)work in a more secluded place and b)work with guys who don't get involved in the nitty-gritty of their co-workers lives. at least not to the same degree as here.

onward, upward - albeit slowly

out of frustration/anger/disapointment - call it what you want - i called and asked to speak with the hr rep. she had gone for the day so i left a message. i was VERY professional about it but i did point out that i noticed the job re-posted online and since it seemed everything was moving in a positive direction, i was interested to know if there was something i missed, etc and could i have the opportunity to remedy it and remain in consideration for the job. i am still having a difficult time understanding why a company would go through all of that work (2 interviews, background checks, dr*g screen, calling references, etc) if they weren't interested in making an offer. seems a waste of time and effort to pursue that much stuff only to pass on the candidate. i haven't received a call back or an email - i don't expect to, really. i suppose if that's the way they handle things then i don't want to work there. i get jerked around enough here and still get my benefits/vacation & sick time/etc. if i get jerked around there i'd be without all of that. so anyway, onward. it still stings like hell to see that job posting at the top of the page but hopefully it will get buried toward the bottom after a couple of days. i'm still quite disappointed but it'll get better and i'll still keep looking - even though right now all i want to do is eat chocolate. hey, nothing soothes bitterness like sweetness! :-)

jerking my chain

prospective employer posted the job again online. i think the opportunity is gone and i'm stuck in this shithole for a while longer. let the binging begin. REVISED: i changed the title to this post because that's totally how i feel this whole thing went down. jerk my chain, make me jump through a dozen hoops to get to this interview and that interview...for what? for fucking nothing.

flashy > safe

in the brilliance of current employer, they've re-tiled the break room floors (after being trashed after 1.5 years), bought stainless steel HUGE refridgerator, stainless steel HUGE microwave and a leather couch for the breakroom. now this would seem f-ing great however, everything is going to get trashed again and it will become money lost. this company has office staff but the majority of the employees are field techs and phone monkeys who don't give a damn about taking care of their own stuff much-less anything else. how about spending the money on plowing the damn snow and ice from the parking lot! you know, showing the employees that you will provide a safe work environment both inside and outside the building. apparently that's asking too much because there is still ice from 4 storms ago (we're talking last december). so if we fall and twist an ankle, hey there will be a leather couch to sit on and nurse our wounds (while on the phone to a lawyer because falling on ice will be negligence on current employer and they will NEED the liability insurance because this shit is ridiculous)! ******************* still waiting on other opportunity. hoping against all hope that it goes in my favor. and did i mention they PLOW their parking lot?!

i'm so learn'ed

today during my lunch hour i decided to go pick up a new robe since it's sofa-king cold here. no biggy, found a blue fleece one without too much fuss. i decided to try it on over my suit to make sure it fit, etc. it's great so i take it off only to discover . . . . . . . . . . . blue fleece lint all over my suit! yes, everyone, i AM that smart! laugh amongst yourselves...i'm busy picking lint of myself. on a different topic, no news on the job front yet. i find that i daydream about the job from wednesday. it would be a great opportunity. really freaking great! i'd be working with executives who have a brain (!!!) instead of these sales reps who do their work at the last minute and back-ass-wards. i'm waiting with baited breath for my phone to ring and it to be them wanting to meet with me again and offer me the job. i'm trying to not get my hopes up too high, keeping in mind that the complete opposite of high is low and i'm liable to end up on the lowest rung of the ladder should the position go to someone else. i just wish they'd let me know one way of the other N.O.W. i hate this waiting and wondering shit.

my toe's in the wading pool

i've sent out some resumes over the past week and had a phone interview today over lunch. i think it went ok. ok enough that i should get a call back for a face-to-face interview...well,hopefully. it's quite nerve racking to go through this whole "new opportunity" process. i've gone through feeling hopeful, anxious, uncertain, and rejected with each resume I send out. i'm preparing, though. writing down the common questions and what my answers will be. that is helping, a bit. so anyway, that's where i'm at right now.