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i should at least try to be excited about this, but i'm not. far from it. anyway, i have a phone interview next week. i've applied for a similar position to this company earlier this month and had a similar phone interview - nothing came of it and i expect nothing will come of this one. i'll still prepare and feign enthusiasm but after the last job interview debacle, i just don't have much left in me. at least it's over the phone and i don't have to go there only to have it fall through. they can tell me to piss off over the phone and avoid the face to face dismissal. on another note, the marketing director is having her baby now. ms. receptionist/customer service supervisor r decided to go around to everyone telling them that she's having a c-section, etc, etc, etc. now, i truly hope it goes well because it's a mom and baby - regardless of any personal feelings. but, those personal feelings do come into play. since director came on board (she's the founder's daughter didn't ya know!) all sorts of things have changed. she's taken over 1/2 of what i did before (ads, glossies for presentation binders, etc) and brought on the hr consultant - she's managed to just start rocking the boat every which way and of course it won't affect her because again - she's the founder's daughter. she doesn't talk to me, and in fact, i barely get a glimpse if we pass in the hallway, so i really don't care about when she goes into labor, etc. i care that it all goes smoothly, but that's as far as i'm going. now, onto ms. receptionist/customer service supervisor r - why does she feel that she has to go and "share" all the news. like it's hers to share?! she also said that "everybody" was asking. um, i wasn't asking and therefore don't feel that she needs to come over here telling me all this. i don't give a flying fuck! i swear, r has to be in everyone's business and has to tell everyone. the woman can't keep her damn nose out of things. that seems to be par for the course anymore, everyone has to know everyone else's business and god forbid if you don't divulge your deepest secrets because then you're labeled as troubled, anti-social or whatever. can you tell i've been through this and am still going through this. it's been better now that i sit on the other side of the building and don't have to be in the middle of it all, but even still - it creeps up on me. not that long ago, last summer-ish, killjoy (boss-lady b) wanted to know why i was so quiet and seemed distant and she said that "something must be wrong at home" implying that something was wrong between j and i. in my head i imagined that i was shoving her head against the door frame and then slamming the door in her face! i was fucking livid! first, it's not her place to butt in, even if it were the case - which it wasn't. even if it was, i woudn't be talking to her (or anyone here) about it. but the fact that she said it matter of factly - what the fuck?! ok, i'm getting really worked up so i'm going to cut this short. suffice it to say, it's like fucking small-town-urbia here. i wish i had studied harder when taking my C++ programming classes - then I could a)work in a more secluded place and b)work with guys who don't get involved in the nitty-gritty of their co-workers lives. at least not to the same degree as here.